What an emotional morning! My heart broke into so many pieces and I felt so much pain. Tears rushed to my eyes.

At that moment, I realised what I’d done to someone who’d loved me and stood by me for almost 30 years. He’d been my source of comfort, the one I ran to whenever I’m in trouble. He carried me on His shoulder. He’d always been by my side.

Yet, I didn’t bother nor paid attention. All I did was paid lip service and made empty promises. I took Him for granted

For once, I’d felt the extent of the pain I’d inflicted. It’s as if I was the one in that position of giving unconditional love that’s not accepted.

I felt empty, abandoned and deserted.

How did I become aware of this?

It was through a guided meditation on Ephesians 4:30 (The New Living Translation provided much clarity.)

“And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, He has identified you as His own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption.”

The next question then is what message am I sending to the world with my life?

I’d been to afraid to lose appeal should I be too Christian in my sharing. And who am I to be telling women to embrace themselves totally and completely? That thought jolted me out of my stupor.

So, I’ve add hashtags to my Instagram posts give all glory to Him who strengthens me.

I now appreciate the following verses even more, given the emotional experience I had encountered..


Adeline Heng